Tuesday, August 1

le bitchin' deux: en flambe

Thank you for your wonderful supportive words and advice. I wish I could say that I feel fantastic but I don't and I'm still really down. But each of your words lifted my spirits and I felt that someone out there is thinking of me. Because I'm feeling kind of selfish right now.

This weather isn't helping either. It hit 50C on the humidex (@122F) today and that is just wrong.

I'm also cranky because tomorrow morning I'm leaving around 5:30 am to go to my in-laws with Bumper and the cats.

And I'm driving it all by myself (5+hours).

And it's not really what I want to be doing.

Husband will be joining us sometime on Friday.

They have dial-up so I won't be doing any blogging and that is really what has kept me sane lately.

I don't even want to be around me so why would anyone else want to be around me?

I'll be back next Tuesday and hopefully I will find myself through meditation this weekend and will be back to my chipper ol' self.

14 comments:

metro mama said...

Hope you have a good week. If it's any consolation, a few of us are away this week--I'm leaving tomorrow for the in-laws and am facing the dreaded dial-up.

Jezer said...

I hope you feel better soon.

Have a safe trip, and try to find some time to indulge yourself.

Mother Bumper said...

You are both so sweet. Thank you :)

mamatulip said...

I'm sorry I didn't comment on your other posts...Bloglines, my lifeline, has been really wonky for me the past couple of days and now I'm suddenly seeing blog titles bolded, indicating several new posts -- posts I've missed. I've read your posts and I have to say that I have days where I feel just like you do. Sometimes they're harder to get over than others. Hang in there and try to get away for some YOU time. Easier said than done sometimes, I know, but so important.

This weather sucks. It's enough to make anyone cranky.

lildb said...

oh, honey. I hope you get some you time. and not just sitting on the toilet, either.

*Hug*

Bri said...

Lots of big hugs to you. I hope the weekend allows you some "me time". I know I've had those moods last for days but eventually they go away, so hang in there and remember you've got lots of friends here in internet land thinking of you.

kittenpie said...

I hope you have a good trip and it has resotrative powers! And that they have air conditioning!

tania (urban_mommy) said...

BM, sometimes you've just gotta fake it 'til you make it. Pretending to be happy and in good spirits can sometimes fluff off residue crappy feelings that are lingering around for no good reason. It sometimes works. If you are simply in a funk, I find this can snap me out of it. Something more serious? Well, we can talk about that when you get back.

Feel better, have a good break.

T

Her Bad Mother said...

The minute you get back you must come downtown and have some face-licky time. 'Kay?

Minerva Jane said...

That's funny I was just thinking about how blogging has turned into this weird therapy-journal-catharsis thing for me. I get in funks like the one you mention that last few posts. Writing, and then reading, and sometimes meditating all help. Other times? It's like a wave I just gotta let rush over me. Even if I feel like it's gonna knock me over, I'm always standing afterwards. Keep your chin up. And keep blogging.

Dawn said...

I recently returned from Detroit( with dial up and inlaws).

Feel free to run away to a Starbucks to read and type. That's how I got through.

And oddly? A blogging break makes you happy to come back. I promise.

sunshine scribe said...

I hope your trip is restful and rejuevenating. Just back myself and I look forward to reading you Tuesday to see how you are.

Take care

crazymumma said...

I just read your last few posts, and I feel like I am reading me.

What did I do to start feeling better?

Well, my children got older, I started working out ALOT, I went to counseling alone and with my Man. I forgave myself. I take anti anxietals, I took anti depressants for a while.

Life has sent you a curve ball, a child, a life change. No one said you could do it alone.

Keep posting....Anne

lildb said...

missing you 'round the nut house, sister.